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Thursday, February 10, 2011
天秤座
身为天秤,出生在秋天的天秤,忧郁是与生俱来的-----尽管人前你见不到一个愁眉苦脸的天秤,甚至很多人认为天秤是一个大大咧咧的粗线条.天秤太善于伪装,或者说,不愿意让不了解的自己的人过多地知道自己的心情.
在爱中,尤其如此.天秤的爱永远像是暗恋:有好感的时候,听到对方的名字,看到对方的身影,都会有一种不一样的感觉,但是自己会很克制不表现出来.即使有机会在一起,在众人当中,天秤跟谁都谈笑自如,亲切有加,惟独对自己在意的那个人,远远的,只用余光感受他的存在.他的一个表情,一句话,都在天秤心里引起阵阵涟漪.这样做的结果,往往是求近而得远.但是没有办法,天秤就是这样无法克服自己的本能.面对喜欢的人,会莫名地自卑羞怯.其实天秤是很善于和异性相处的,从小到大,也不缺乏哥们似的朋友.但是,对自己喜欢的那个人,她做不到那样洒脱.哪怕只是主动地打个招呼,也会紧张对方会不会看透自己的心思.天秤期待爱,但又恐惧爱的力量会将自己拖入万劫不复的深渊.
即使两个人最终相爱了,天秤依然表现得冷静有余,热情不足.她会在任何时刻想到你,天气的变化,随便遇到的什么人或者事,念头一闪就转到你的身上去.她会在夜晚想着你的好或者不好,高兴或者难过地默默流泪.她会设身处地为你想很多很多,甚至想得太周到连你自己都想不到的周到.她会为你的某个失误找各种各样的借口,在质问你之前已经原谅了你,但是还是要你一个解释,一个简单的合理或者不合理的解释就轻易能让她释怀.她会为要不要给你打电话或者发短信犹豫很久,生怕打扰到你或者令你不方便不耐烦.她会想象出无数个美好的相处场景,沉浸其中不能自拔.
但这一切,她不会让你知道.天秤并不缺少爱的能量,但缺少爱的勇气.或者说,如果有什么是天秤不能为你做的事情的话,那就是放弃自尊.自尊是天秤的最后一块堡垒,生死共存.天秤看上去开朗,其实细腻而心重.她一生都在期待真正懂她的感情的那个人.你来了,她有多么激动;可是,她又不敢相信那个人真的就是你.她等得太久太苦,以至于都绝望了.所以当那个人出现的时候,她反而慌乱失措了.她不知道如何在一个热烈的爱人与优雅的女人之间做出选择,你更喜欢哪一个呢?她不断地问自己.一方面,她也在不断地问自己:我这样做会不会失去自我?他会喜欢这样的我吗?如果她不喜欢,我怎么样做回自己?
这样复杂而强烈的情绪,你不会真正体味得到.天秤掩饰得那么好,只会对你微笑,即使流泪,也是静静的,不会哭喊发作.如果有伤害,她会一个人反复回味,直到在痛的重复体验中失去痛的敏感,再原谅你,继续.她不大会谴责,不大会推卸责任,她永远把错先揽在自己一边.甚至归结为自己个性的缺陷.天秤在爱里的自卑使她不得不这样在黑暗里爱着.她怕你知道她的"不好",她自以为是的不好.也怕你为她而难过伤心,那样还不如她自己独自忍受.也许伤到最后,天秤发现自己无力再承受了,她会安静地走开.绝望与崩溃,也不会让你看到,哪怕她痛苦到极点,你看到的,仍然是一个平静的天秤;顶多,有些冷漠.那冷漠也未必是针对你,很可能,是针对爱的.
天秤知道,最输不起的,就是感情.交付起来,是一点点,一滴滴,直至沦陷;破碎时,却是大厦倾颓,天昏地暗.她了解人性中的任何世俗与卑微的心理,她怕自己柔弱的爱情成为这些丑恶的猎物.-----这就是天秤,即使受伤,她依然会把过错归于人性的弱点,而不会,真正地去恨.你看到她淡淡地来,淡淡地去了, 却不知道,她的心无声地碎裂成了什么样子.
天秤的爱情就像在上演的一部电影,他们就在这出戏里,眼看着它从开始到结束。落幕并不可怕,秤子们在乎的是他们成就了一部电影。
天秤不喜欢落入俗套中的爱情。与 天秤爱过的人,也许回头来看,都不知道该怎样去评价那个秤子。爱着的时候是淡淡的,离开的时候也是淡淡的,甚至,连分手的理由都不屑追问。假如一个秤子在你面前掉了一次泪,你决不会想到她在背后曾为你哭过无数回。
天秤的爱情有些自闭。他们喜欢纠缠在回忆里,幻想里,那些破碎不堪的画面对他们来说就意味着完整。其实,做秤子的爱人真是轻松得很,你不用刻意去安排什么浪漫的场合,你什么都不用做。因为, 天秤都有一颗浪漫的心。只要心里有爱,再平凡再普通的事也被他们美化了。
天秤的内心真的是很温柔。这种温柔绝不是娇柔做作的那种,而是有一颗明事理的心。天秤懂得尊重别人,这并不是人云亦云,事实上,秤子没有那么多的好奇心去在乎每个人的想法,对自己不在乎的人,又何必较真呢?这是秤子做人的道。而对于自己爱的人,他们的一言一行秤子会拿来奉做“圣经”。
天秤喜欢钻牛角尖,没错。一旦他们爱上一个人,就很难再去相信自己的直觉。他们会抓住对方的一句话,一个举动,然后暗地里穷分析,直到得出自己最确信的答案。当然,他们得出的结论也是相对客观的,秤子不会傻到蒙蔽自己。但,殊不知这天底下最难测的就是人心,而喜欢猜心的秤子往往是被自己弄得筋疲力尽的。
爱情是一个人的事。天秤肯定对这句话大有感触。爱上了,倒反而寂寞了,因为想把自己交给一个人去了解,可这个人懂吗?值得吗?面对着眼前这个若即若离,神秘又淡然的秤子,谁又会想到他们的内心正起着暗涌。而相反的,爱上秤子的人会在某一天突然却步了,想要放弃了。原因只有两点:一是感到缺乏安全感。摸不透秤子的想法,热度也不够,温温的。要知道这世上的俗人千千万,也许他们在认识你的第一天就想着跟你上床,而秤子期待的爱情是首先要建立在精神上的,美的,有幻想空间的。于是,分道扬镳。二是感到秤子的爱是种负担,因为秤子的爱里容不下一粒沙。其实,秤子最喜欢的是和自己过不去,但,人永远无法超越的却是自己。秤子的这个结老也打不开。
天秤多有自虐倾向。他们天生就懂得“悲剧艺术”的魅力,他们的爱情里要是没有一点悲剧色彩,就好象是不完美的。矛盾吧?!虽然,秤子们追求的是幸福美满,但他们又喜欢作茧自缚。失恋的秤子,往往不会寻找什么好的途径来忘却,相反,他们会找出所有的情歌来听,让自己沉浸在其中无法自拔,直到自己都撑不下去为止。
也许,只有那种历经坎坷,途径九九八十一难最后才修得正果的爱情才是他们内心最最向往的。所以,要是没有一点“分量”的感情, 天秤有时就会“分心”。
天秤就是这样的,爱到后来也不知道自己在爱什么,冷暖自知......
很多人讨厌天秤,说天秤们难以捉摸,变化莫测,最会当和事老。其实只是他们不了解天秤,上帝的失误让天秤成为了最悲伤的星座,但是善良的天秤们却是单纯的让人觉得可爱。所以不要琢磨天秤,试着理解天秤你就会爱上她们。
爱上天秤的人也不要困惑,我们是一群没有安全感的孩子,所以我们逃避,我们恐慌,如果你真的爱你的天秤,就把你所能给她的你最大的安全感都给她,最后你会发现爱上一个天秤是多么幸福!=)
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
HAHAHAHAHAHHA >:D
back to spam this blog..!!
as usual, love is posting a lot, talk had posted some stuff n i disappeared...
hehehe.....XD
well im back to this blog!!!
yet this is my 1st post in 2011......
n its the middle of CNY.....
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HAPPY 2010!!!!!!!
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!
hmm... wud else.. guess nothing else~
well i guess i shud b more attentive to this blog niaa.....
i'll try my best!!!
>:D
P.L.A.Y!
Monday, February 7, 2011
Saturday, January 29, 2011
2011 New Life.
so, im just gonna write whatever i remember. =)
23th january.
i went to sunway university college for a seminar with a bunch of friends.
seth, ziyin, weihunn, shelley,linghui,coco,sharon,kexin,gwen,qy and wanping.
It was a great seminar, i think?
At least, some parts of it are FUNNY & NICE!!!
What i could remember is Dr.christopher's talk about our brain & Ms.Amber Chia's talk!
They're seriously AWESOME! =)
Oh ya, while we were having our LATE lunch, there was a taekwando performance!
IT'S SHO DAMN COOL!
the mandarin oranges they throw to the audiences were DROPPED infront of me, TWICE! =)
this shows how lucky i was! =)
Hmm, whats next?
I MET AMBERCHIA in the toilet before she went on to the stage!
seriously, SHE'S DAMN SOK & PRETTY & SEXY!
I saw shes inside the toilet when me & QY just reached there.
and then shes standing BESIDE me.
another model came in, she said *Good show ya! to that model!
Such a nice teacher!
Then, i thought she went out d, i quickly tell QY bout that! *she didnt see her!
I didnt realise that amberchia was still there!
SHE SAID ''HI" TO US!!!!!
Awwww, shes sho sweet & lovely!!!
Im so regret for not taking photo with her! ><
But i got her signature before going to sunway pyramid and we were like sho damn CLOSE to each other!!!! =) *Darn freaking excited that time!
I seriously feel that I WAS SHO LUCKY THAT DAY!!!
2mandarin oranges, meet amberchia, got amberchia's signature, free japanese icecream! =)
Lovely Ending of that day. =)
26th january.
A schooling day, as usual.
Had pizza for lunch! I ate one personal pan pizza-hawaiian supreme! & another plates of meetballs! Thanks dear, for paying that!
Road run practice after that! =)
27th january.
4months had just passed.
Time passed, until i didnt realise that day was actually 27th.
*Im not that kind of people that know exactly whats today's date.
28th january.
Everyone wasn't in study mood today,
so we requested the teachers not to teach today!
We were playing poker cards infront of the discipline teacher & our moral teacher, En.vicky!
Well, i think that was pretty cool! =)
AND AND AND, I decided to take back BC again.
Oh no! gotta stay back until 1.50pm every friday!
Mandarin could be one of the most important subjects nowadays, isnt it?
so its better for me to continue taking it & sit for the exams. =)
*trying to be optimistic!
I had finished reading my-confession of a shopaholic!
so went to OU's popular and buy another 2books from the same series! =)
I LOVE BEING A SHOPAHOLIC!
29th january.
Today was such an awesome day! Except i woke up at 6.30 to get prepared. =(
Sweet-day too! =)
The green hornet is kinda nice! =)
but it isnt worth RM18.
what to do? they just have 3D want.
stalked my lengzai today!
i think he realised i was actually stalking him!
lalala~ but i dont think he will recognize me next time when i go there again.
Saw quite lots of SEXAY, CUTE & PRETTY GIRL today! =)
Noelle too!
shes really pretty! and i damn ADMIRE her! =p
anyways, today is awesome! =)
Dear, Thanks alot! =)
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Sunday, January 9, 2011
first of 2011!
talkative T.A.L.K!!!
things changed this year.Now, we're already Form 5!!
well, this is a very very very important year for us!!
dont mention about the SPM first, we shall enjoy every second of our life!
Form 5.It means we're the very super senior at school,and also means that this is our final year in secondary school..
we must and we will definitely appreciate our friendships and every incident happening among us..
well, wish all of u Have A Nice Year!
enjoy every moment!!
put the sadness aside, we wont be happy for keeping our eyes on negative stuffs (or anything that might makes u unhappy)..
:D alright, wish u all Happy n Healthy!!
-talk:)